In the Dark


Have you ever felt like you were in the dark?  Like you were trying to see, but you just can’t? Im going to get real with you today…..I’ve been in the dark.  I’ve been in the dark and I feel like my eyes are just now being opened a little.   Let me explain a little what I mean by this.

We all go through seasons.  The holiday season is one that is very painful for some people.   I’ve always tried to embrace my “season”.  There is a season of taking care of babies, a season of never ending toddler-hood, a season of working, a season of rest, and season of sickness, a season of running around creation with your older kids and watching all of their games….I could go on.  But as we know it is easy to praise our God in our seasons of no trouble.  In our seasons of success.  In our season of making money.  But, what about that season of where it seems everything you ever wanted came crashing down on you?  A season of darkness without much light.  What about that season?

That’s when its hard to remain faithful.  That’s when it’s hard to be a good example to your kids and keep a good attitude. 

We have been in this season before.  We have all felt like we have been reaching out of the dark.  It’s usually a time of panic, confusion, and faithlessness because something didn’t work the way we wanted it to.  Without going into a lot of detail I am sure you know what I am talking about.  A season of not hearing the voice of God that you so long to hear.   Whether it was a loss of a loved one and you just can’t understand why, a huge financial loss, or just loss of hope for some dream in your life, we all have been in that place before.

But, what I am learning in this particular season is a little different than before.

Before I heard nothing and thought I was being ignored and gave up… I know that I am supposed to remain faithful in the quiet times too and that God doesn’t always speak in audible sounds.  Sometimes he speaks in options given.   Before I would immediately first panic, then come up with my own solution.  Now, I know that my own solution isn’t always the best solution.  Before I was a decision maker… I pray before making the decision.  Before I would get irritated, emotional, and snap at everyone around me.  Now I realize that this time of trouble is only going to be for a period of time and I have to make the best of it and endure.  You come up with more creative ways of doing things than ever before.  You learn to not waste as much or take things for granted.  You learn to express your love to your loved ones because this world is fleeting.


I’m not going to lie and tell you it’s not stressful or scary, because it is.

But I am learning how he wants us to respond.  Slowly every day I am learning to trust him more and I feel his is revealing himself to me. 

12 Therefore, since we have such a hope, we are very bold. 13 We are not like Moses, who would put a veil over his face to prevent the Israelites from seeing the end of what was passing away. 14 But their minds were made dull, for to this day the same veil remains when the old covenant is read. It has not been removed, because only in Christ is it taken away. 15 Even to this day when Moses is read, a veil covers their hearts. 16 But whenever anyone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. 17 Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. 18 And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.  (2Corinthians 3:12-18.)

Did you read that?

“But whenever anyone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away.” 

I don’t see a time frame here.  It doesn’t say, turn to him today and tomorrow will be fine.  It doesn’t say, give it a week and see what happens.  It’s something that is supposed to happen, always, all the time.

You see, we have been doing this all wrong.  Whenever we have trouble that is when we want answers, we want to know what to do, what will happen.  Often in those times that is when God is the most silent.  Why???

I think it’s because of this verse.  He wants us to praise him and have faith for who He is in these times, without answers. We are a culture of immediate action and immediate reward.  When something is wrong we want to fix it now.  But, God doesn’t work that way.  He doesn’t even work in the same realm!  Once he sees our faith in him, that we believe He is good, only then is our veil removed and we can see.  Who doesn’t want to live in freedom? Who doesn’t want to experience his glory?


Faith comes first, then understanding.

Let me say that again, faith comes first, then understanding. 

By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God’s command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible.  (Hebrews 11:3)


So until we learn to have complete faith that whatever we are going through is for His good and that he is good, then we will keep circling around the same mountain.  I don’t want to do that anymore. 

So in this season you are in, whatever it may be, lets remain hopeful and have faith.  Not faith does not mean doing nothing, but it also means listening for direction.  Your response means everything. 

I refuse to remain in the dark.  During this holiday season I have chosen the Psalms below to mediate on.  I read it every day and work on memorizing it.  Would you do this with me?  Or pick another verse that resonates with you and your situation. 

Psalm 145

A psalm of praise. Of David.

 I will exalt you, my God the King;
    I will praise your name for ever and ever.

 Every day I will praise you
    and extol your name for ever and ever.

 Great is the Lord and most worthy of praise;
    his greatness no one can fathom.

One generation commends your works to another;
    they tell of your mighty acts.

They speak of the glorious splendor of your majesty—
    and I will meditate on your wonderful works.

They tell of the power of your awesome works—
    and I will proclaim your great deeds.

They celebrate your abundant goodness
    and joyfully sing of your righteousness.

The Lord is gracious and compassionate,
    slow to anger and rich in love.

The Lord is good to all;
    he has compassion on all he has made.

All your works praise you, Lord;
    your faithful people extol you.

They tell of the glory of your kingdom
    and speak of your might,

so that all people may know of your mighty acts
    and the glorious splendor of your kingdom.

Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom,
    and your dominion endures through all generations.

The Lord is trustworthy in all he promises
    and faithful in all he does.

The Lord upholds all who fall
    and lifts up all who are bowed down.

The eyes of all look to you,
    and you give them their food at the proper time.

You open your hand
    and satisfy the desires of every living thing.

The Lord is righteous in all his ways
    and faithful in all he does.

The Lord is near to all who call on him,
    to all who call on him in truth.

He fulfills the desires of those who fear him;
    he hears their cry and saves them.

The Lord watches over all who love him,
    but all the wicked he will destroy.

My mouth will speak in praise of the Lord.
    Let every creature praise his holy name
    for ever and ever.

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